Way We Were
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Way We Were |
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How can you tell me you love me When others know you play You acted so innocent about it When I asked you about it that day. I know something's not right I sat here all night just crying Trying to figure this out My heart feels like dying. I thought this time was different I had found love in a new way It seems everybody knows you I can't go through this another day. I am better off by myself again I don't want to hurt anymore I am so tired of being lied to Seems like that's all I'm good for. A happy life is just not for me I struggle to keep my heart Then decide to let it love again My own fault from the start. Trusting is not easy for me I told you that from the start You promised not to hurt me Now my heart is torn apart. I don't want to hurt anymore I feel like I should just give in I can't take this heartache anymore So let this for me be the end. |
There is so much your words don't say. Is it because you are afraid? Is it because of a broken trust, That has driven this wedge between us? I am sorry,is all I can say, Forgive me and I will try everyday, To rebuild that trust you hold so dear, Cherishing you and kissing away your fear. I beg you not to go, Give me a chance to show, That one you fell in love with long ago, Is still here for you, you know? I know I was weak and really screwed up, But now I know how deeply it cut. I am sorry and promise this day, To never, ever, again to go astray. So I ask that you forgive, That we once again may live, By all that is holy and the stars above, I pledge to you my undying love. So what do you say, Will you give it a go? We can start over today, And take it real slow. Please say yes, So I can make it right Lay your fears to rest, In my loving arms tonight. |
Forgiving You Is Not Easy |
Thank You For Forgiving Me |
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I will forgive you this once But trust - it will take some time I can't act like it never happened I can't just act like I was blind. When trust is broken It needs to be repaired I need some time to mend From you, that's only fair. I can't just jump right in Go back to what used to be The hurt is to much right now I think you will agree with me. My bed was made for love You have violated that trust Right now I need the space to think Before I can say there will be an us. Trust is something that is earned Respect was lost caused by pain It's not going to come back over night It is something that has to be gained. Love can only grow where there is trust A second chance I will allow my heart But know my heart is still in pain from this So don't press me to show affection to start. |
Thank you for forgiving me, I now know what I would have lost, My eyes can now see, What this transgression cost. If I had the power To turn back the clock, It would not take an hour, For that fling to drop. All that is left For me to do, Is to proclaim east to west, My ever loving thank you. I am glad you found it in your heart, To give me a chance to show, I can change my part, Allowing our love to grow. I will not press, with that said I will sleep on the couch Until you take me back in your bed. |
The Way We Were |
Answer to The Way We Were |
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I know I can forgive you But what really worries me Is can I forget what you did Will it haunt me, we'll have to see.. It will not go away on it's own It will take time to work this out I don't know how to go about it Sometimes I just want to shout... I picture you being in her arms How it really tears me up inside How do I get beyond all that With all these tears I've cried... I see this when I look at you Sometimes even in my dreams How can I make this go away Sometimes I just want to scream.. How do I know when you leave You're not going to do this again What kind of life would it be If on your word I could not depend... Something has to be resolved I want to forget it happened can't you see When I can't even get past the hurt How do I get over this anger in me.... I don't like it anymore than you Sometimes it all becomes a blur I don't want it to be this way I want things the way we were. |
I don't think either of us will forget, But you can rest your mind, For it is now a sure bet, From now on, I will walk the line. I know it will take time, But for me the lesson learned, Will keep me in line, As on my memory it is burned. It is funny that when she was in my arms, I could only picture you Then I thought of all the harm, This little fling would do. So many times I wanted to tell, But the words would not come, Now I am sorry as hell, You found out from someone. If I knew then the anguish I would feel now, I would not stray, This I vow. I brought you some coffee, And breakfast in bed, It just a token you see, To get back to love as you said. We can make it through this, I believe our love will overcome, We will look back on this tryst, As a turning point to triumph. We may never make it back to what we had, But maybe take our love higher, And that would not be bad. I promise on all I hold dear, That your heart will need not fear. To you, I will be forever true, For now I know, there is no other that could love me as you do. |
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Mommy, Why Does Daddy
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Dealing With The Anger In Me |
Response to Dealing With the Anger In Me |
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A sure bet you say to me You will now walk the line You know how hard this is for me For now all we have here is time. A hard way to learn a lesson If we have nothing else together Love, Respect and Trust was ours We made it through a lot of stormy weather. Why now do you turn to another Was not my love enough proof Did I not give you everything Where did I go wrong or goof. Were we not the best of friends We always said we would be Something happened along the way Was that something you or me. And what about our children What will they think of us They will want to know why I don't really want to make a fuss. Thank you for the coffee I needed it I think I will stay in my room today Can you handle the children for me Right now I don't know what to say. Will you please hold me for a minute I need to feel your arms around me I am so scared right now about us It will never be what it used to be. We have so much to lose by this You say our love will overcome That we can make it through this Right now I just feel so darn numb. I want to be by myself right now I have a lot to really think through I know you are hurting as well What happened just wasn't like you. We can talk more later about this But I need to sort through my life I need to deal with this anger in me If I am to continue being your wife. |
I know you are angry, You have every right to be, I don't know what to say or do, To make you see, now, there is only you. No, it wasn't you it was me, For that moment in time I was weak. She came on to me and turned my head, Next thing I knew we were in bed. I guess I was flattered, I don't know. But as we were about to make love, My mind she did blow. Then, I started thinking of you How devastated you would be, I couldn't go through, With the act you see. I knew it was wrong to go with her, But I backed out before it went to far. I swear, It will never happen again, My defenses are shored up against any temptation. The children knows something isn't right, When they see daddy on the couch at night. If they ask, tell them no lie, Tell them we have a problem That we don't see eye-to-eye. I love holding your body close to me, That is why I ran out on her, don't you see. I know you are numb with fear, But I will be here to kiss away your tears. Never more to seek to roam, I am happy with my life here at home. I know it will take time, Take as much as you need, The kids will be just fine, They and I will go out and play hide and seek. I am really sorry, and my love will never again fail you. I pray you can forgive me, I know it won't be soon. I have been a real lout, So I will leave you now to work it out. |
She Begins To Question Her Self Worth |
Yes, Go, I Understand |
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Please can you come inside I need to speak with you I have been thinking a lot If what you said earlier is true... You said it was not me but you For the moment you were weak She came on to you, turned your head Look at me crying, can hardly speak... I'm sorry but I need to get this out I didn't want to cry talking right now But just the thought of you in her bed The fact that she turned your head somehow. I feel like somehow I've lost my touch Like I don't turn your head anymore Is there something wrong with me Do I not turn you on as I did before... Please be honest when you answer I need to know if I am still sexy to you You used to tell me I was beautiful Is there something she did I didn't do... I don't feel so beautiful right now When you look at me what do you see I have tried so hard to keep you happy Oh God will you please hold on to me... I need to be in your arms right now Please just hold me and don't let go I am so scared with all that has happened I feel so confused I just don't know... I don't want you to think I don't love you I still love you with all my heart But please I need a little more time I still feel my life has been torn apart... I need to get out of here for awhile This house is closing in on me I think I will go visit my mom awhile Can you handle the kids today please... No matter what has happened here Before I go I must say one thing Just know I still love you very much I wouldn't trade what we had for anything... |
I know you are angry, You have every right to be, I don't know what to say or do, To make you see, now, there is only you. No, it wasn't you it was me, For that moment in time I was weak. She came on to me and turned my head, Next thing I knew we were in bed. I guess I was flattered, I don't know. But as we were about to make love, My mind she did blow. Then, I started thinking of you How devastated you would be, I couldn't go through, With the act you see. I knew it was wrong to go with her, But I backed out before it went to far. I swear, It will never happen again, My defenses are shored up against any temptation. The children knows something isn't right, When they see daddy on the couch at night. If they ask, tell them no lie, Tell them we have a problem that we don't see eye-to-eye. I love holding your body close to me, That is why I ran out on her, don't you see. I know you are numb with fear, But I will be here to kiss away your tears. Never more to seek to roam, I am happy with my life here at home. I know it will take time, Take as much as you need, The kids will be just fine, They and I will go out and play hide and seek. I am really sorry, and my love will never again fail you. I pray you can forgive me, I know it won't be soon. I have been a real lout, So I will leave you now to work it out. |
At Mom's House Talking Things Out |
Hello...Mooom |
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Mom I have something to tell you Yes mom, he has broken my heart I feel like my whole world is lost Mom, I don't know where to start... Yes mom, I still love him so much He has been my world for so long My everything, I adore him so much He says it was not me why he did wrong... Mom God it hurts so bad what he did I feel so betrayed and so lost right now What makes a man do something like this I need to get by this anger mom some how.. I don't want my family destroyed, torn apart I need him so much but am afraid it's to hard I am afraid to show him right now how I feel The anger may cause me to throw up my guard... If we decide to stay together this anger has to go Yes mom, I know he loves me very much too That's why this is so hard on me to believe It's like someone pulled the rug from under my shoes. Oh mom, I wish this was a bad dream, nothing more He called you, oh mom what did he have to say He apologized to you and dad for hurting me so much See mom, that's what makes me love him this way.. Mom please tell me what to do, I am so confused I know he wants to send you and I to Hawaii But if we are going to try work things out together We are going to need some time alone you see... Oh he already mentioned Hawaii to you also What doesn't he think of when he needs to He told you I was his beautiful white dove He was crying on the phone talking to you... Mom you should hear what he told me before I left He had me in tears and I wanted him so bad I don't know how to show him mom I want him Every time he wants to kiss or hold me I get mad.. That is what I need to get through but how do I He says all the right things to win my heart But soon as I begin to feel like maybe I can I see her in his arms and all the anger starts.. Mom how can you ask me such a thing as that Yes he is very good with me while we are in bed But that is not all there is to a marriage and you know Yes mom I have run that through a lot in my head.. We are very good together when we are in bed We were very good together in other ways too I know if this anger was not hanging on to me Things would be a lot better and so do you... He's the only man I know who can touch me The way he does and know I would melt But I am scared to let him touch me right now I almost got lost in his arms today the way I felt... Mom I need this time to get my head cleared I know he wants to come back to my bed If I let him hold me to long it may be his way I need to talk to him but with a clear head... You think I should go back home tonight I was going to see if I could stay here I guess your right I need to be with the kids I can't be running from my own fears... Mom the phone is ringing if that is him Please just tell him I will be home soon OK He said what, The kids are asking about me Oh mom I can't deal with the kids this way... Thank you mom for talking with me today I know what I have to do now so I must go Do you think you and dad can watch the kids If we are going to make a go of this I need to know.. I'll be in touch with you real soon mom I will let you know what is going to happen Let me get home before it gets to late I will have to face questions the kids will be asking. |
Hello...Mooom? Mom, I am calling, because I don't know what to do, Ever so wise is why I am calling you. Yes mom Those are tears you hear, I hurt her badly, I am losing her I fear. No. It was nothing on her part, I don't know why I did this to her heart. Yes, I should have known better, But the girl was a real go getter. She turned me every which way but loose, And it came down to I had to choose. I am so sorry, mom I could just die, No mom, don't start, Or we will both cry. We have talked about it and I have begged for forgiveness once more, I would never, ever do this again, Will you talk to her I implore. Mom please don't cry, I feel so bad and you know why. The kids'yes they are fine But are starting to think something is amiss. God forgive me for making a mess of this. She has gone to her mothers to let her know, I just don't think I would want to continue to live if she goes. Mom, I have to hang up now, The baby is calling me from the pot. This family, mom, is the only important thing that I have got. What? Yes tell dad I send my best, I would like to talk to him, To get this off my chest. Pray for us, that we will find love once more, And our hearts will be an open door. Pray we get back to the love we had when we first met, And that she not only will forgive me, But somehow in her heart she finds a way to forget. Oh God, mom, I don't know if I can go on, I love her so much, But for this, How do I atone? Lord here comes the baby, trailing toilet paper from her behind, I have to go now, mom, thank you for a little peace of mind. Tell all that no matter what happens, I love you all. Good bye for now, Yes, if it gets to bad, I will call. Goodbye. 
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Phone Call From Your Mom |
You Sure You Want a Back Rub |
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Honey I am home from moms Where are the kids already asleep Well I had a long talk with mom today Let me go look in on them, just peep... Yes it was a long talk we had I understand you called her too She told me you were crying Honey, I know this is also hard on you.. Take the pain you feel right now Add to it five times to get what I feel Then add to it all the confusion too You see why I still don't believe this is real.. We need to talk about what we can do Mom says she will be glad to keep the kids She also finds it very hard to believe She never expected you would do what you did.. She says you are human and we make mistakes Some make worse than others ever could We had a nice long talk about you and I She told me to pray to God, I said I would.. I know I need his help to get a hold of this anger Cause without him it might never go away That is not good for any of us right now Like she said it wont be gone in just a day... Honey, the phone can you get it for me I don't want to talk to anyone right now I am tired and ready to go to bed So who ever it is tell them I am out of town.. Who, your mom and she wants to talk to me Oh Honey, I'll get it in the bedroom hold on Hello mom, how are you doing, me, not so good Yes that's right I just got back, I had been gone.. I went to go see my mom today and talk He did, I know mom, I know he is hurting too I know he is also sorry for what he did to me Mom he has told me all of this til he is blue... Yes mom, I heard that from my own mother I know the kids are what we have to consider Why do you think I am trying to work on this Do you think I enjoy caring around this anger... I know mom and I am trying to, but remember I didn't ask him to go out and do this to me I was the one he hurt and betrayed here Or is this something nobody else here can see.. If I don't get rid of this anger we will have nothing I am working on it but it takes time you know Yes mom, I know he still loves me, I know this Ok mom, I will and you too, I will before we go... Honey I am going to bed now I am so tired I feel like I have been so mentally drained I need some sleep right now but later we can talk I need to talk to you, something to explain... Could you please come in the bedroom Would you mind massaging my neck for me I feel like my head is going to burst right now It hurts so bad I can hardly see my two feet. |
I can come and give you a rub, While you soak in a hot tub. But you know where that usually leads to, And I don't want to pressure you? It would start at your neck, then your shoulders with a gentle caress, Kisses will follow, Down to your breasts, Slowly I would work down to your feet, And you know as well as I We would both end up in heat. Are you sure this is what you want to do, Again, I don't want to pressure you? If you think maybe I am right, Go ahead start your bath And I will get the lights. Have you eaten? Do you have a comfort food in mind? I will get it from the kitchen for you with a glass of wine. With your permission, Would a hug and a kiss be out of line, Maybe if my heart you could listen, Everything would be fine. It says "I love you, and I always will". Ever since I met you, my heart you did thrill. To kiss you, I ever long, Before I repair to the couch Where I belong. Goodnight my love my sweet dear, If you ever want me, I will be here. I await your beckon call, I pray it be soon, I am climbing the walls Like some kind of loon. The dog is not happy that I took his bed, The fleas aren't ecstatic, crawling on my head. I hope we make up quick, This has me nauseated it has made me sick. Is that a smile I see, Are you taking a little pity on me? Well, I guess I need to get some sleep if I am to talk to the kids in the morn. Goodnight my love, please forgive the corn. Nite. |
Talking To God - Myself, Feeling Lonely |
Come Back to Bed |
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Goodnight honey, see you in the morning. I have never felt so alone or so cold This bedroom seems so big right now I lay here at night just staring outside God help me get over this anger somehow.. Our Father in the Heavens above I call on your help through your son I know this anger is not good for me It isn't good for my family or anyone... Please God let me throw this anger away Please help me to get rid of it somehow Help me to put all this turmoil behind I miss being in his arms so much now... God I am so scared, I beg for your help I love him so much, he wants back my life I don't want to hurt the kids nor him I just want to go back to being his wife... Give me the strength to go out there I know making love right now I can't do I want to invite him back into his own bed Please God give me the strength I ask of you.. Please help me to forgive him for this That I don't ever bring it back up to his face No matter what the reason I need to forgive To get on with my life I ask for your Grace... The rest will fall in place God with your help Thank you for listening Father, for your love I know I can always come to you anytime I ask through your son Jesus up above... I am going to go out there, take him back He will have to understand the way it will be For the night just to hold me in his arms OK God here I go, please stand with me... I am so nervous going out there oh darn I hope he will understand what I need I know he will want more and will try Should I go out there, I must succeed.. It is quite out here I hope he's not asleep Maybe I should just turn around let it be OK you can do this, God is with you Honey, are you awake, it's dark, I can't see. Before you say a word let me get this out I'm feeling lonely to much confusion in my head But please it is just to hold me tonight I need to be in your arms. Please come to bed. Yes I am sure this is what I want and need Please just come before I change my mind I am so nervous right now just asking this But I have to start somewhere this is the time.. Yes take my hand I'll walk with you I know my palms are all sweaty from this Yes please hold me in your arms tonight Yes honey you can give me a goodnight kiss... Oh honey I miss being in your arms so much I feel like it has been forever since we last kissed Yes honey I miss so much more about you Do you think I have enjoyed being like this. I don't want to talk right now, please hush I just need to feel your arms around me I want to feel the love we once shared Tonight this is how it will have to be... We will have to speak to the kids in the morn They will be with my mom while we're away I will let you speak to them and explain Right now I don't know what I would say.. Goodnight honey, I hope I am doing right I have been praying to God for his advice It feels good to have you back in my bed I just want you to know this feels so nice. |
Oh, my! What did you say? Thank you, God, for that I prayed. Yes my love, That I will do, For I too have felt the need, To hold you. I know what you mean, And I shall not press, It is only to have you near, Your warmth and body to possess. Maybe not the best choice of words, But you know what I mean. Yes, that was a quiver your heard, My tears you have intervened. Tomorrow is another day, Maybe this will help us find a way, To tell the kids not to fear our leaving For we will be back in a few evenings. Shall I wear pajamas there within, Or would you prefer, skin-to-skin. Just kidding, I won't press, Come here my love, Snuggle up to my chest. Ohhh, that is as it should be, My arms around you, You cuddling me. God I miss you Out there on the couch, Knowing you are so close And me without. A little prayer before I sleep, Dear Lord forgive me, Let me, my lady keep. Let us never again be apart, Please heal our broken hearts. Let us be a family once more, This prayer I send, Your mercy I implore. Thank you Lord, I leave it in your hands, Just touch the hearts Of this woman and this man. Amen. Goodnight my love And what's more, You are so cute, When you snore. |
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 Daddy, Mommy says we have to go to grandma's to stay. Why daddy, we want to stay here to play? Mommy and daddy are going away, To a place where adults can play. We won't be gone for long, And before you know it We will be home. Don't worry sis, They will be back, Soon as they get There marriage on track. Such a grown up big sister You have turned out to be, Will you help your Grandma With your baby sister for me? I will mama, We will be good, You will see, Just you and dad make up, Please! I promise, baby, We will try, Now you two run outside, Before you make me cry. Come on sis out to the yard, I will push you on the swing, Ok, not to hard. It is going to be hard to leave those two, But I need to have some time with you. Somehow, we must work this out for them, Even if it means living a lie, Cause I could not bear to see the pain In their little eyes. We will make it babe And with out the lies, I know my love for you Now, will never die. If you can get past the hurt you feel, We will make it, I am sure we will. Our little girls, Will never again Have to fret, About mom and dad's Relationship being in the toilet. I love you hon, Is all I can say, Trip or not, I n'er again will stray. You want to watch them While I pack? Do you trust the way, The clothes I stack? If you would rather To go lighter than air, We can really vacation, And buy what we need there. Will your mom keep the dog, Or will it be the kennel for him, Look at him, asleep like a log, Without a care or a whim. Ok, I will make the call. Go check on the little one, She just had a fall. |
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Leaving The Kids With Our Moms |
Our Travel Surprise |
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Mom, yes we will be there soon I am calling to ask you another favor Can we leave the dog with you also mom No that's ok I already did got him beef flavor.. We will be on the way in just a bit I have all the clothes they will need OK mom I will be very careful you know Yes mom, they are my kids, I don't speed.. OK kids give daddy a goodbye hug Oh baby please don't cry it wont be long God honey this is going to be so hard Leaving them like this just feels so wrong.. Oh God this is killing me, honey please Get them in the car so I can dry my eyes I don't know how well I will do with this How can I tell my little one goodbye... Ok mommy is ready to take you to Grammies Sissy will you please help with the baby for me She is going to be crying a lot for us you know Help her with her prayers - read her stories. 
Here we are at Grammies house baby See Grammie waving and waiting for you She wants to take you both to the park Sissy grab the baby please tie her shoes... Hi mom, yes he is waiting at home for me Our bags are packed and he is calling now Mom, this is going to be so hard for me But I have to get through this somehow... I feel like I am being pulled in all directions The baby is crying and it is killing me My mind is in a turmoil, I am going crazy Where is daddy, can I go and see.. Daddy are you awake, yes it is me I am coming up to see you before I leave Oh daddy I need a hug so bad from you Yes he is at home waiting for me... No daddy he is being very sweet to me Daddy why does it have to hurt so bad Now I feel like my whole world is lost Having to leave my kids I feel so sad... Yes daddy I want to work this out I know the kids will be just fine I love you too daddy thank you so much Yes daddy I will try to have a good time.. I will see you when I get back daddy Sissy please be good and help out I know you will sweetie you always are Oh baby please don't cry and pout... Mom this hurts so bad leaving them God I feel like my heart is being torn out I know I must go to make this work But damn it's tearing me up without a doubt... Ok mom, you get with his mom today You both work out which night they will go When we get down there I will call you Then you can tell me so I will know... Yes mom I will, I know we need this time It is just so hard leaving them behind Don't say that cause you know I will worry Yes mom I will try to have a good time... Honey I am back home from moms Did you get everything taking care of It was so hard leaving them there you know I felt so bad the baby crying mommy lub.. Telling me she loves and wants mommy Oh honey I just want to get things right I can't stop crying thinking about her Yes maybe I will feel a little better tonight.. Daddy said to tell you he sends his love No honey he is not going to hate you We had a long talk, he wants this as well When we get back he wants to have a barbecue... Yes honey I am all ready to go I need to get out of this house for a while We got everything we will need for the trip I'm sorry honey but right now I just can't smile. |
Hello, I would like to make reservations for two, I realize it is kind of late, Can you see what you can do, In your hands is my fate. Oh, by the way, How much is that? That much huh, Woo, pick me up from the mat. You don’t have any rooms? None at all? I have to for a second honeymoon, Or her divorce lawyer she will call. We are looking for a new start, To mend our broken hearts. I was hoping this surprise, Would raise my stock in her eyes. You say you have single, But it is reserved for the crew, Uh, we will take it What will we have to do? Cabbie, take me to 317 W. Vine, Will you wait for just a time, I will load our luggage on your rack, Then you can take us back. The cruise will be a surprise, So I will make her close her eyes, There is an extra ten for you If she doesn't catch on, I will let her open them once you are gone. Here she comes, mums the word, I don’t want us to be over heard. Hello my love your chariot awaits. No I shan't tell you, There are two surprises on this date. Drive on cabbie in all due haste, We do not have a moment to waste. Close your eyes dear So you don’t spoil the 1st surprise. We are here, Go ahead and open your eyes. Yes my love, it is the Love Boat, We will spend a glorious week afloat. Wait my love, our path, Not through terminal lies, That is part of the second surprise. We will be a part of the crew, Wear uniforms and do poetry readings, From 10 until 2. Wait, wait, it will be fun, It will be just a working vacation. Come on, you will see, This will be fun for you and me. The cabin is a single, but we can make do, It will give us a chance for our relationship to renew. After our shifts, we are free, To do the touristy. Come on, you know you will have fun, If you don’t when we get there You can fly home. Atta girl, you are going to give it a go, You will have a ball, this I know. When we get home, the stories you can tell, Maybe write a poem about the honeymoon from hell. Just kidding. Did I say we get paid for this? How's about a little kiss. 
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Another Attempt To Make Me Smile |
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Hahaha you are funny, Oh honey I think I'll stay home with the kids today Have yourself a nice trip on the boat Enjoy every minute of your working day.. NOT!!! You try so hard to make me smile Honey the smiles will be back in my eyes I promise with all my heart I will try, OK My heart feels so heavy now, you know why. We have never left these kids of ours I feel like a big part of me is missing I know this is what we need for us I so miss your hugs and us kissing. Honey will you promise me one thing This trip I need to know what I mean to you I need to hear it as much as you showing it I need to know your heart for me is true. I know you said so many wonderful things In the last couple of weeks have been nice Those were words you said to me before So promise before you speak think twice. I need to feel that trust in you again Even though that may take some time You have a way of smoothing things over To help get this craziness out of my mind. I want what is in your heart, not the mind I love you honey, and our children as well Trust you know is so important to me If we want to get through this living hell. So take it slow and easy for me to start I need to feel the love in your arms Please don't rush me into anything I know how you use your sweet charm. Please let me go at my pace for now I will let you know when I am ready Let me get my feet wet again Just stand by incase I begin to feel unsteady. So lets get on with this trip what do you say I am ready to get on with my life as well Please be patient with me honey to start I know you want to get on with it too, I can tell.. 
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Ladies and Gentlemen, this is the Captain speaking, A typhoon is headed our way and it is expected to strengthen. Please don you life vests and listen to your crew, If the need should arise, they will take care of you. Did you hear that dear, We are going to get some wind, Shouldn’t be anything to fear, This is a good boat we are in. Mustn’t let her see, I am scared out of my mind, For me to be lost at see, But our babies need her kind. Come on my love, Let us go to an above water deck, We can find a secluded alcove, Where we can neck. Ladies and gentlemen, this is the Captain again, We lost half of our life boats in this wind. Please keep your seats or stay in your room, Until you are told to abandon this watery tomb. Don’t worry dear we will be all right, It will blow past us by tonight. Honest, we will be fine, you will see, By tomorrow night we will be in Hawaii. Ladies and gentleman this is your Captain, We have stuck a cargo container and the ship is starting to list, Please go to your life boats, Your crew will assist. Women and children will go first, Is the rule of the sea, Men will wait until those boats Are away free. I have sent a mayday to summon help For our distress, Unfortunately, it won’t get here in time the seas are a mess. Ladies, take only your purse or tote, And as always, Thanks for choosing the Love Boat. Well, it looks like this is it my dear one, Tell our babies, I love them a ton. No, you go, and I will stay, I love you like no tomorrow, today. Go now get on the life boat, And pray this bucket stays afloat, Long enough for us to be together once more, Goodbye my love, hope to see you on shore. This is the Captain, abandon ship, Life boats away, the bar is free if you sip. I wave good bye as their boats disappear from site, I look up to heaven and pray my soul is right. The wind begins to slack as the cold waters wash over my head, I pray I am one, when the sea gives up her dead. I hear a voice calling me, I turn to it, it is only the sea. I love you my deeaaarrr. 
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Sean! Sean! No this is not happening! Oh my God, please don't let this be so! How can this be happening? It cant be. Oh God not my Sean! Please No! No!  What happened? Why is this happening? He said this boat was safe. How can this be? This must be a dream. Wake me up Please Sean. Oh my Sean. Someone please help me! No! I will not believe this is happening. We were supposed to work things through. Spend time together with each other Try to make this marriage work, me and you. Oh Sean! Where are you honey? Oh Please, Someone tell me they made it off the ship. No lady! You're lying, the ship did not sink. This was going to be a very special trip. Oh God please, don't let this be true. I can't live without him, I need him so. When are they going to go back to get them? Somebody go back, My Sean, I need to know. He has to be ok. Please find my Sean. No! I won't believe he has gone down He is a good swimmer and will make it. Please, someone go back and look around. No sir, my husband was on the boat too. His name is Sean. Please find him for me. Oh God! Here comes one of the life boats Sean! Sean! Where are you? No sir, I don't see. No! You got to go back out and find him. Please sir, you have to find him for me. You don't understand sir, he is my husband. We have two babies, No, this just can't be! Yes Sir, My name is Seina and his is Sean. Yes Sir I have family back in the states. Why? I can't call them til I find my husband, Sean. No sir. I will not listen to you. That is a lie. Oh God no! Let me be. I have to find him. No, you have to go out again, he is out there! I know he is. I can feel it. I hear him calling me. No! I am not in shock. He is out there somewhere. Please let go of me, find my husband Please! No! I don't need anyone to look at me, I am ok. I need you to go back and get my husband. No! You can not wait til the break of day. No! I don't want to call, he is coming here to shore. I will call when you find him and know he is alright. No! I don't need a blanket, I need my husband Sean. Oh My God please help me, this just can't be right! No! Go away! I don't want to talk on the phone Who? My Mother, how did you get her on here? You got the information from my belongings? Yes, I will talk with her, but Sean is out there.  Mama? Oh God! Mama the ship went down. Yes mama, I am fine. No mama, I don't know where. Mama where is daddy? Please put him on. Oh daddy, please help me find him out here. They say he went down and they can't find him. Daddy, I know he is still out there, Yes I do I can feel him daddy, I can hear him calling me. I am not crazy, they say I am in shock, will you? When can you leave? Right away and fly. Oh daddy please hurry, I need you to help me. I know he is alive daddy. I just know it is so. They say they can't go back out, you will see. Yes, please call his father. I don't think I can Ok daddy, I will see you when you get here Please hurry daddy, before it gets to late. I will daddy, I will keep looking for him everywhere. Yes sir, my daddy is coming to help out. He was in the Navy, he will find him for me. I don't see why you all can't go back out there? There has got to be more men than what I see. I will keep looking til my daddy gets here. Oh God, let me sit down before faint or fall. God I need you. Please let him make it back. Please God! I know he is ok, I heard him call. God I need him so much, he is my world. I know I was so angry at him for what he did. Please God! Let him be ok. I beg you, please! I know he loves me and he loves his kids. Oh Sean where are you? Please be ok honey. I know God is watching over you where ever you are. Oh God, I wish I was in your arms right now. I can feel you are close Sean. I know your not that far. I know I could hear you calling out my name I know you heard me calling out to you Darling keep calling to me and let me know That what my heart is telling me is true. |
Ptuii!!! What? Where am I? Damned salt water, I didn’t die?!? Thank you Lord for saving me, Even though I am shark bait here, In this deep blue sea. I pray Lord that you saw fit, To make sure my wonderful wife, Made it. Lord, I am insignificant as people go, But our babies need their mother so. So Lord, a last request before I die, Is to let her to safety fly. Well Lord, it is just you and me out here, Be nice, right now to have a cold beer. What? Look behind me you say, Well I’ll be dipped, there is a case, Coming my way. Lord, I got to say, You are a right good traveling partner today. I wouldn’t want to press my luck and ask, But a boat would be nice if it is not to great a task. Well, I didn’t think so, I will just bob around with our beer, Til something floats near. You know Lord, looking back at it, I wish I had had dessert on the buffet. I sure don’t have to worry about my weight now. I think I am so hungry I could eat a cow… Raw. Well Lord, I think I will take a nap, Tell Seina I love her, I would, But it would my energy sap. Don’t let her give up hope, Lord, we aren’t yet at the end or our rope. Huh, here I am Lord, I am awake now, What’s the word. I don’t see a rescue ship, What, oh! Over there, A boat that has flipped. 
Well strike me down Lord, You made a believer of me, Get me out of this one I swear I will never do it again, You’ll see. There, we got it upright, I will have to bail by hand, But should have it by tonight. Look here there is a first aid kit, With this tarp under the bow, And this oar, a sail I could knit. Oops, can’t forget our beer, Gotta get that in here. With the crabs down there, It won’t be such bad fare. Siena, my love, hold on I’ll be there, If the winds helps, And the weather stays fair. Lord, take my message to her, On an angels wings, Her prayers will be answered, To her you will me bring. Well Lord, we have work to do, If you would like, Have a beer or two. Me? No thanks, I am just happy to be alive er, Besides, I appear to be the designated driver. Third Day AfloatSeina? Is that you?Yes, and may I ask who? Who I am is not important now, I was the other frau. I heard on the news He was lost at sea, And I wanted you to know, He did nothing with me. I tried all my feminine wiles, The thigh-highs, and sexy smiles, But as he started to the door, I heard him say, I can’t do this to her, No way. I just thought you should know, Now I will go. Wait, you mean, he just walked away? Yes, Seina, that is what I called to say. Thank you, whoever you are, Hearing that has lifted my heart. I won’t believe he is lost at sea, I just know he is coming back to me. ~~~ Row, Row, Row your boat, Gently down the stream, Sure you wouldn’t like to take over, It is your turn it would seem. No, I can’t drink a beer and row too, Save the bottles to catch the morning dew. Row, Row, Row your boat, At least we are still afloat. Ha, ha, ha, I think I am losing my mind, I know there wasn’t much there to find. Ha, ha, ha, ok, give me one of those, I have rowed all I can, I must doze. Seina, my darling, I am here, I am fine, but God is drinking up the beer. I am rowing and sailing too, I am on my way back to you. You are so beautiful, In that white negligee you have on, Just as beautiful without, Hon. Tell our babies, daddy will be home, Keep saying their prayers, It won’t be long. Well, I really need to sleep, God is on the tiller, My soul his to keep. Rest easy my love, Keep that candle lit, Want be long my dove, I just know it. What is that awful squaller, Thank you God, It is a fishing Trawler.  I don’t know if I have the strength to wave, But I must, if I am to see my babes. Over here, over here, it is so black, Days later, I awaked on my back. Hello? I try to wheeze. Sollie, Chollie, only speak Japanese. |
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God, what am I to do now? They tell me he is lost at sea I refuse to believe them, he's alive I can hear him, he's calling to me. Daddy, what I am I going to do What do I tell the kids for now He is not lost like they said at sea I know he is alive, I can feel it somehow. No daddy, The feeling is way to strong Remember what you told me back awhile The first time I had a feeling like this When I came to you with it you just smiled. Well that is how I feel right now daddy The feeling is so strong as if he was here They could have gone out one more time I know daddy you did all you could there. I need to get the kids on to bed now I don't want them to see the news again They have been through enough you know I can't watch their little faces losing him. Lacy, It's time you went to bed honey Don't worry daddy will be home you'll see Yes mommy will come up with you now Yes baby, lets say our prayers you and me.  Mommy thinks that would be nice too Daddy would love prayers from them all Lets put them down here beside of you Yes baby God knows I hear daddy call. Let's ask God to keep daddy safe for us To help him find his way back home Yes we love your daddy so much baby If Prayers are done get mommy the comb. Daddy's little girl is getting so big He is so proud of you for helping out He missed you both as much as I did Especially the way your baby sister pouts. Your hair is so long my little princess Daddy would be brushing it for you I know sweetie I miss him so much too Please don't cry sweetie, I know you do. Yes sweetie I do believe daddy is OK I believe with my heart he is, I really do God is with him guiding him back to us Goodnight Princess, Mommy-daddy love you. |
Now I lay me down to sleep, Oh, hi Lord, I was just praying For my soul you to keep. Thank you for saving me, It had to be you that plucked me from the sea. Yes, I am on the mend, Making a bunch of new friends. Yes, I see you sitting there, I don’t think I am crazy, If so, I don’t care. My soul you did save, And my body from a watery grave. Sorry, I can’t offer you a beer, My new friends frown on it here. This boat is appropriately named, the harvest moon, You harvested my soul, And I will see my family soon. Thank you, I will not let you down, Never again will I run around. My God and family will take first place, And I will stay out of that rat race. I would like to stay, But it is time for my shift, Lent is going to be hard, Cause after this, I don’t think I could look at another fish. It has been hard to make them understand, That I have to get to Hawaii And not to their land, But it looks like, I will be going to Japan. Oh, no. Far be it for me to complain, Even when we are working in the rain, It is the smell that gets to me, And no one understands when I speak. Yes, I know you do Lord, And I appreciate that, But talking to you, I have to keep under my hat. Well, see you later Got to go haul in some nets, Hope those clothes there dry, Cause these will be soaking wet. If it wouldn’t be to much trouble, Can you take a message for me, Tell my wife and babies to not lose faith, I wasn’t lost at sea. Thank you Lord, I have to go, Your will be done, The beer is in my locker there below. |
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Mama, I need to put the baby to bed now. She is crying for her daddy, you know? She hasn't had a nap either today. Come Leann, upstairs to bed you go. No baby, daddy will be home soon. You can kiss daddy when he shows up. Yes baby, I promise you, daddy will be home. Ok Leann, you can bring along your pup. Kiss your Papa's and Grannies goodnight. You will see them in the morning time, Ok? Yes baby, daddy will be home soon too. Let's go up and we will ask God when we pray. Leann, daddy loves you with all his heart. He wants his little girl to be a big girl tonight. Let's say your prayers for daddy right now. Close your eyes and see daddy in the night. Dear God, we come to you once more. We ask Jesus to bring our pain to you. Please God, bring back their daddy safe. These little girls need him so much too. Yes Leann, you can ask God anything. God loves you so much, my sweetheart. Yes Leann, God can bring daddy your kisses. Yes, He can fly them on angel wings really far. You want God to fly you to daddy's arms? Well baby, God knows you are safe waiting here. He wants you to wait for daddy to come home, But he can take daddy your kisses to there. I know baby, daddy always tucks you in And he wouldn't miss doing that for the world, But daddy can't be with us tonight, baby. Just remember, you are daddy's little girl. Oh Leann, please baby, don't you cry now. We will see your daddy really soon Ok? Please baby, I know you want your daddy. He would be here for you if he could today. God give me the strength to make her see. I need you to help me make her understand. I am so lost without him and so are they. I Beg you God, Please help him find dry land. Yes Leann, mommy is talking to God. I need to talk with him, just like you. I know baby, I miss your daddy being here. Close your eyes and see daddy like I do. Daddy is with you all the time you know? He is the sunshine in your eyes when you smile. When I look at you I see your daddy all over. Yes, daddy will be home for you in a short while. Hop up in bed, mommy will cover you up. I know daddy usually does this for you, But mommy will have to do it for you tonight. Goodnight baby, mommy and daddy love you too. Oh God, Please be with him, keep him safe. Bring him home to us as soon as you can. The children miss him - need him so much. Oh God, please bring me home my sweet man. |
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Yes, I can explain. Yes sir, I understand This will be a pain. You see, I was lost at sea, When the Love Boat sank under me. I drifted, I don’t know how many days, When these Japanese fishermen Picked me up along the way. We were on the way to Hawaii, So a passport we didn’t need, The Japanese fishermen didn’t Speak English When I was picked up at sea. So here I am and I want to go home. I have been away from my babies Way to long. I don’t want to raise no fuss, So can we keep this between just us. It will be tough enough with the press and all, And we will really need some time If you can hold that call. I don’t know where they are all at, But I know they will be home when I get back. So if you can put me on a plane Then you can start looking, Besides my loving family, I can’t wait for some home cooking. Thank you for all your assist, If you get to LA, stop in, I insist. Give me your card so I can drop you a line. Yes, I will be alright, now, I will be fine. Good bye. ~~~ Hi, Lord, didn’t expect to see you here. Hey stewardess, can you bring us a beer? Oh, I think we will be ok now Lord, You have given me hope Of a heavenly reward. What’s more you have given me my life, And more importantly, You have given me back my wife. Can’t ask for more than that, I see now that you are where it is at. Tell those angels watching over me, Thanks for taking my messages over the sea. Will you come home with me old part, No? Well you will always be in my heart. Ah, here comes the stewardess with our beer. Uh ma’am, didn’t you see him here? No, well, let me pay, I will take them anyway. How long before we land, Oh, that long to San Fran. In that case I will snooze, I have a feeling I will soon be on the news. Good night Lord, You definitely are word. |
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Daddy, I am going to bed now, Goodnight I hope when I wake up this will be wrong All a bad nightmare and nothing more I don't know if I can wait that long. I need him daddy. They need him. I am so scared. When will this all end? My heart aches so bad daddy, for him. Oh God, When will this nightmare end? I can't help it daddy, I love him so much. I can't stop thinking it is all my fault now. Yes daddy, If I hadn't been so angry at him The anger lead us to this nightmare somehow. I know daddy. Yes he did wrong, that's true. But God, What if he never makes it back to me? What if I have lost him for good? Oh daddy. I can't make it without him. Can't you see? He was my first love and my world, my everything. The kids loved him so much, it would kill them. I know daddy, I am thinking past tense already. Oh please daddy, all I want is to be with him. I look over there at his parents, it makes me cry. I feel like I let them down as well seeing them. I know they don't blame me daddy, but still. OH God daddy, Please I need to be with him. I hear him calling to me. I feel him so close. I know I am not just going crazy, losing my mind. Every time I am by myself or thinking about him, I see and feel him near. I hear him so clear at times. It's like he is calling out my name. Calling to me. Am I really losing it daddy, am I going insane? Could it be, I love him so much, my mind is gone? Maybe I have already lost it from all the pain. Oh mama, I can't do this anymore. It's to hard. God help me. Keep me from losing it right now. I got to keep my head straight for these kids. I keep doubting myself. Got to keep faith somehow. Maybe I just need some sleep, I'm exhausted. Yes mom, I will try, but it will not be so easy. Sleep will not come easy, right now you know? |
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Daddy get up, it's time to go home. We will miss the plane, got to go. Come on everyone, lets move it. We have to get home, No daddy, no. I won't believe that, I know he is. He is alive and I have to keep believing. Let's get to the airport right away. The plane we are going on soon will be leaving. Yes ma'am, we need to get on board. Can you tell me, how long it will be? Yes ma'am, we were from the ship. My husband was lost, they said at sea. No daddy, I won't believe it is so. I know he is ok, and I feel it inside. Come on, get on the plane everyone. Oh God, here comes the press, hide. Oh that was close daddy, I won't talk. I have nothing I want to say to them. They don't care that I am hurting, All they want is a story to write about him. Oh I am so glad this plane is in the air. Come here baby girl, daddy will find us. I know you want your daddy, so do I. Let's try not to make so much a fuss. Daddy, when we land, I don't want to talk. Can you please, keep them away from me? I don't think I could handle this today. I have to keep away so the kids don't see. I couldn't take it if they said he was dead. If the kids heard them it would be real bad. They don't care about who they hurt, As long as they get a story about their dad. Sean's dad said he would handle them. He knows what to tell the haunting press. I already talked to him about it last night. It would cause us all way to much stress. Ok kids, seat belts back on, we are landing. Daddy, please stay right by my side. Dad, don't let them get to you about Sean. We'll see you back at the house, come inside. Daddy, please stay by me, help with the kids. My stomach is all in a knot just avoiding them. Hurry kids, stay right behind your grand papa. Daddy, here they come, don't say a word of him. No, get away from us, leave us alone now. Are you so heartless you can't see I'm in pain? Why can't you just get away from my kids? We can't even get all the way off the airplane. No, I don't want to talk about him to you. Daddy make them go away from me. God, leave us alone please, it's not right. My kids are crying, scared, leave us be. Oh God, daddy they have the baby crying. She is calling for her daddy to help me. How can they be so cold hearted now? Are they all blind to pain? Can they not see? No Lacy, don't talk to them, look away. Just keep walking honey, not a word ok? No baby, daddy will find us, he will come home We have got to get home baby, right away. Taxi, Taxi, over here please hurry up. Get in with the kids, daddy take them. Mama grab the baby, quick get in with her. Get away from me, NO! I will not talk about him. Go driver get out of here and take me home. Yes, I remember you. Yes 317 West Vine. How did you remember where I live sir? You remembered my husband saying Vine? When you took us down to the slip, Yes, he had a surprise trip planned too. Yes, my husband is a very gentle man. We were running late that day, you got us through. Thank you sir, and here is your money. No sir, you take this for being so good to us. I thank you for getting us home so fast. I know they were trying to make such a fuss. Come on kids in the house with grand papa. Hurry mama before someone shows up here. Dad and mom should be coming home soon. I hated the thought of leaving them behind there. Please daddy turn on the news I want to hear. Mama can you take the kids and go upstairs? I want to watch the news before I lay down. Then I will go up and rest with the kids in there. Daddy come sit with me while I watch the news. Maybe something good has happened out there. Maybe they rescued some more men in the water. Oh daddy, I still think he is somewhere near. Oh daddy, they found some more bodies. Oh God please don't let any of them be him. Daddy, Oh God no, not him, it can't be him. He can't be gone daddy, I got to speak to them. I got to find out daddy, I should call them. Would you call for me and see if he is found? I can't say the other word cause I know he's not. Find out if the search and rescue is on the ground. If it is, that means they have given up on him. How can they just do that when he is out there? I refuse to give up daddy, I just can't do it. I have to keep believing he will find us here. What are they saying daddy, what are they saying? They didn't find him and they are not going back out? How can they just do that to him? To me and the kids? They have to, they got to go! No, don't tell me not to shout! We have to find him, he has got to be out there. He is alive and I wont believe anything less. No daddy, I can't give up on him. I won't do that. I don't care what they say, God wouldn't do this. God wouldn't, I know he is alive. No daddy no! How could you say that daddy? He can't be. No, I won't listen to that kind of crazy talk. I love him and we need him here with us, with me. Oh God no daddy. No! No! It can't be real This can't be happening! No daddy No! Oh my God No! My Sean, my Sean I need him! He is not gone! No he is not, I just know! I don't care what they say I don't believe them. They are lying to me, Sean said he would see me. He would see me on shore is what he said. You can't give up daddy, I love him don't you see? Sean, Sean, Oh God Sean where are you? Oh God no, please God. Oh God I need him so. Daddy, oh daddy, please don't let this be true. Oh daddy, I feel like I am dying inside. No! No! No daddy, I can see him as clear as day. I am not going crazy, he is not gone, not dead. I see him, how could he be gone, I hear him, He's calling out my name, not just in my head. Oh Daddy No! I can't let go of him. No! No! I need him daddy. The kids need him. He is not gone. He is not gone. No, he is not! Oh God, how could this be happening? Oh daddy, I don't want to take this pill. I know I need to keep strong for the kids too. I don't want to sleep, I want my Sean home. Don't tell me that, That's something I won't do. No daddy I don't have to face it. No funeral home. I wont go, No I wont. I can't give up on him. NO! Oh daddy I am so tired, I feel so sleepy now. Oh Sean, I see you Sean, I miss you sooooooo. |
This just in from our affiliate in L.A. Let us go there now Are you there Linda Lieaday? This is Linda Lieaday reporting for WPIX in LA, We have information that a survivor From the Love Boat disaster will land here Today. We will try to get a word with her and her family, Here they come, keep that camera on me. Misses Costickson, will you do, Just a short interview? Please, we have questions to ask, I know it is a daunting task, But America wants to know, How you all are holding up, As the story of your husband’s loss Unfolds. Please, Please step away, My daughter-in-law will answer no questions today. My son is not dead, We refuse to believe all that is said. We still feel him here with us, We won’t believe the lies, For it is in God we trust. Now please, We beg you, Leave us alone, All we want now, Is to get home. Thank you, Now step aside, Here is our cab, Here is our ride. There you have it Mitch, It appears they are in denial, They have such great faith through this trial. But soon, they must face reality, That her poor husband, and their son, Was lost at sea. Back to you Mitch, There will be more to this story, So far untold, We will be back as more of it unfolds. Thank you Linda, You are so right, Thank you all for tuning in, That is the news today, You all have a good night. 
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SEAN OH SEAN, where are you honey Yes I hear you, Please come to me I need you, we all need you Sean What, What, Oh daddy let me be I was talking to Sean, why did you wake me I saw him daddy, I spoke with him too Why did you have to wake me up He is alive daddy, I'm telling the truth. Mama please tell daddy Sean is alive I saw him and spoke with him at last He is coming home today, he is, he is Why won't anyone believe me at last. Where is Sean's mom and dad at They went home to change and make calls To whom and for what Sean is alive Yes daddy he is, I saw him walking in the hall. He came into our room here and kissed me He said he was ok and was on his way For me to wait for him and let everyone know Daddy I am not going crazy I heard him say. Oh God why wont anyone believe me God please tell them he is doing fine I wish I could prove it to everyone but how They all think I have lost my mind. Oh Sean how do I make them believe I can't go to the funeral home today If I do it is just like saying you are dead I won't believe it or a word they say. Daddy please, please listen to me I have not lost my mind, I know he is ok Please daddy don't make me do this Oh God help me, I don't know what to say. Sean Oh God If you can hear me Please forgive me honey, I must go They are all going, I have to be with them I refuse to believe you won't show. God I know you are listening to me Why must I go through with this hell I know you are with my Sean protecting him Why must they insist, I'm not feeling very well. At times I feel like it's all a nightmare Then I hear Sean calling out to me God am I really going crazy or not Please God tell me how it should be. Yes daddy I am getting dressed right now Can you please send mama up here Mama, Why does this feel so wrong I feel like I am doing this all out of fear. Yes I know it has been two weeks now But mama you know yourself how I feel Don't you believe there is a slim chance I know his parents think this is for real. Mama I can't do this, I won't hold up I am so afraid I am going to just lose it What about the girls mama, what shall I say You know they are going to throw a fit. No mama I can not leave them out of it If you all insist going through with this They should be just as much a part of it I don't want them going but everyone insist. No tell daddy I don't want anything to eat How can I mama I would just get ill I feel really bad as it is without adding to it Just so you know this is not by my will. Ok if we are going lets go and get it done I will meet you all outside in the car I need a few moments alone in here Tell daddy I don't want to go to far. Sean, some how I know you can hear me I love you honey, Oh God Sean all I do is cry Our babies miss their daddy so much You're only man in my life, without you I would die. A note I shall leave for him to see Incase he comes home I'm not here Yes in the kitchen is where I leave it He will always look first in there. Dear Sean, We are at the funeral home, They made me do it, They said you had to be gone. I still hold out hope that they are wrong, I just can’t believe you are gone. Seina Daddy, just so you all know I don't want this It doesn't seem right, I feel like its all wrong I know my Sean is still alive, coming home But you all think he isn't and he is gone. Daddy please hold my hand going in there Don't leave my side please stay with me How can I do this when it feels so wrong Oh daddy this hurt so bad, God can't you see. No sir, I think we made a big mistake No daddy I can't do this please don't make me I know his parents are hurting too I am aware But daddy it is way to soon don't you see. Oh God what am I doing here it's not right Oh Lacy baby I am so sorry I know sweetheart I miss daddy to so much, don't cry please I know this is hard baby, you are in daddy's heart. Daddy see what this is doing to us all It was a bad idea coming down here I can't go through with this anymore today I just need to go and get out anywhere. Daddy I can't breath, take me out of here Please daddy take me out, take me out Oh God some fresh air, oh daddy I can't do it I can't go through with this, I'm sorry if I shout. Take me home daddy, take me home I can't stay here any longer let's go home I have to be home I am wasting my time. Home where in my heart Sean and I both roam Come on girls let's go home and wait for daddy He will come home to us and we will wait there I know your daddy he loves you both so much How can I make you all believe that he is here. |
Ma’am. Those reporters out there Are waiting for me, Is there another way To the next gate, Help me please. I know they told you my tale, I just don’t want to deal With the reporters on my trail. I just want to get home, To the ones I miss so, Please ma’am, help me go. Thank you for getting me through, I will send a letter of commendation To the airline for you. Thank you, I will definitely fly you again, Don’t know how soon or when, But I will my friend. Bye. Oh, hi, Lord When did you come aboard? Yes she was very nice But I have learned my lesson, I am now wise. A wonderful woman awaits at home, And I have been too long gone. I hope by now, I will have been forgiven, If not after all this, Lord, I am not sure I want to go on living. Yes, I remember saying I would put you first, But if I lost her, hell couldn’t be worse. I know, I am sorry as can be, I am just excited that her I will soon see. Do you want something to drink, This is a short flight, But they should have something I would think. I am in good hands you say, Thanks to you, are you going away? Please, stay with me til I am at home and hearth, You are right, You are always with me here in my heart. If you must go, I understand, There are many others You need to give a helping hand. Thanks again Lord, I promise to stay in touch, Excuse me ma’am? Oh, I was just talking to someone I will miss very much. What’s that? Put away my tray. We are getting ready to land? Oh happy day. Ma’am, you recognize who I am, Can you get me past those reporters, I’m kind of on the lam. No, I haven’t done any thing wrong, I just don’t want to talk to them, I want to get home. I appreciate the assist, You really are a terrific miss. No, thank you you have done enough, I will grab a taxi, I am in a rush. Taxi, Taxi, over here, Well, Well my friend, We meet again, Yes, that was 317 West Vine. I give you an extra twenty to keep it quiet, Would that make you mime? Thank you for the ride my friend, A long time coming this has been. Drive safely and thank you once more, But this is what I have been waiting for. ~~~ Let me see if the key is still under the mat, No. Hmm, oh that’s right, The flower pot is where it is at. HI HONEY, I AM HOME! Hmmm, wonder where everyone has gone? Oh hi, Lord, You did stop by here, No one appears to be home, Can I get you a beer? I am sure we have some in the ice, Right now a cold one would be nice. No? you have to run? But thought to look in on the fun. Talk to you later Let you know how it came out, Oh, you already know all about. Can you, like, clue me in? I will find a clue in the kitchen. That is all you have to say? Yeah, I guess that is okay. Be seeing you, Lord, I hope, Not to soon though, I’m not yet at the end of my rope. Bye for now, Going to look for that clue, Catch you later, Be seeing you. Maybe she left a note on the message board, Dear Sean, We are at the funeral home, They made me do it, They said you had to be gone. I still hold out hope that they are wrong, I just can’t believe you are gone. Seina I know you hated that chore, But you must live on, our babies for. Well, I am bushed, I will wait for you in bed, Boy what a surprise for your pretty little head. SURPRISE HONEY, I am not dead. Oh God, this bed feels so good, I smell her perfume, I could sleep like a piece of wood. Maybe I will just rest my eyes, Before giving her the big surprise. I’ll just close them for a minute or two, Just a liiittllleee snooozzzeee. |
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NEWS FLASH!!! This just in from our reporter Linda Lieaday, at the airport. Linda, are you there with this intriguing short? Yes Mitch, our sources in Japan reported that a survivor, Of the Love Boat disaster was on this fight, We and this crowd of well wishers have been Waiting here all night. Wait, wait, we have the taxi driver, That drove the family to this ill fated trip. How do you do sir, Can you tell us who he is? I am sorry ma’am, I must honor my tip, He paid me good to button my lip. Can you at least point him out When he comes through the gate? I hate to tell you this sister, You are too late. What do you mean We are too late? I mean to tell you He is already gone, Not a half hour ago, I dropped him off at home. Well, Mitch, a startling development here Looks as though our quarry has made it in the clear. Ask the driver if he will open his fare book, Give him a hundred for a quick look. I am sorry ma’am, that wouldn’t be proper, He paid a nice tip, that I will honor. Okay sir we appreciate your honesty, Mitch, I am afraid that is a wrap for me. Back to you guys in the news room, The crew and I are headed back home. We will let you know if anything else breaks, We will try to track down this brave soul, No matter what it takes. If you are listening to my voice, sir Please give us a call, Our subscribers and your neighbors, Want to know it all. How did you survive all that time at sea? How did you keep your sanity? Please our number is Burbank 7-7734 Whatever other stations offer, we will offer more. Back to you Mitch, I am done with my pitch. This is Linda Lieaday, Signing off, nothing more to say. Cut. |
A Waking Dream |
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Huh? What? It can't be true. Am I really Home? Is this really you? Awake my dear You have to hurry home. I am waiting here, All alone. Is it really you I see, Or is my mind playing tricks on me? Somehow you seem so real, Your softness, I can touch and feel. I know I haven't seen you of late, But, I swear, You look as though You have put on weight. God? I hope I didn't say that out loud. You can let that message, God, Get lost in the clouds. Sleep my darling, It will be soon, Me, you, and the girls, will dance once more, To our favorite tune. Sins will be forgiven, to never reoccur, And we will dance to, 'The Way We Were'. If I am asleep, When you come in, Wake me my dear wife, Lover and friend. I can't wait to hold you for real, Hug you. Kiss you, your sensuous body to feel. To hug my girls, Just once more, Has kept me going Is what I am living for. Once again we will be A complete family, With you, our babies, and me. I will wrap my arm over this pillow And pretend it is you, Close my eyes to rest once more, Strange where the mind will go, I swear I hear that pillow snooorrre. |
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The room is so dark, but who needs light All I want to do is sleep I'm so tired right now These clothes need to come off before I do God I still smell Sean's aftershave, but how. Oh this feels good being out of those clothes I never want to put on that dress ever again I think I will burn it when I wake up from sleep Oh these shoes, they were so much hurting. I forgot how good this bed feels to be in Oh Sean, I know somehow you hear me I know you are somehow very close to me Darling please, oh please, you I need to see. God please, bring my Sean back safely My heart is breaking, I need his love I want to be in his arms so bad right now God please, I know you hear me up above. Please let him be ok and come home I don't want to go on with out him I don't know if I can make it alone The kids, what am I suppose to tell them. Oh Sean, all I do is think about you Remembering the day you proposed to me It was the happiest day of my life then Remember how we said always happy we would be. Then the next time I felt such joy in my life Was when I found out we were going to have a baby You picked me up and carried me into the house Kissed me and said I love you so much my lady. Oh Sean happy times we have had our share Then came the birth of our second child You were so in-love with her before she was born I chose her name you just looked at me and smiled. Oh God, I feel like I am going to get sick What is wrong with me, all this sick feeling Maybe it is the stress from all this happening My stomach is doing turnovers just reeling. God I smell you so strong Sean where are you It's like your laying right here next to me in the bed I must be losing it again or the stress is so bad Cause it's like I hear your breathing in my head. You seem so close yet so far away from me I hope you don't mind if I grab your pillow tonight I need to smell you to get through this stress What is on your pillow, something is not right. What is this, touching , it feels like someone Oh my God someone is sleeping in my bed Oh God who is it, Sean, Sean, is it you, Oh my God Is it really you Sean, Oh God , Oh God, am I going out of my head. Am I losing my mind is it really you I must be falling apart, I am losing it this time Oh God is this really happening to me Oh Sean, Sean, help me, I'm losing my minddddd. |
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Once Again, The Way We Were |
Thank You Lord |
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Mommy, Mommy wake up Leann is screaming She wants her daddy and won't stop crying I told her daddy wasn't here right now She won't believe me, so I kept on trying. Mommy Please wake up here comes Leann. Dada, dada, my dada. See mommy what I mean? All she keeps saying is dada, dada I want dada When I tell her he isn't here she just screams. Oh Leann honey daddy will be home soon I promise baby girl, Oh no watch out, got to run. Mommy what's wrong with you? I am sick honey. Why you sick mommy, maybe to much sun. No baby, think it is more than that. What mommy? Lacy, turn mommies night light on by the bed. Yes mommy. Mommy, Mommy, OH Mommy! What Lacy? Dada, my Dada. No I'm not losing my head. This is real, this is, right Lacy? Yes mommy he is real. Oh my God I knew it, I knew it was true, yes it is true. Lacy, Oh Lacy, look it is your daddy, Leann look, dada. Yes baby it is dada, he is here, yes he is here for you.. Oh My God Sean, Sean wake up honey, please wake up! Daddy wake up! Dada, dada, up dada Now Dada Now! Girls, Jump on the bed and wake your daddy up, Oh Sean. It's ok, mommy says it ok to jump on the bed for now.. Oh God I knew you were coming back, Oh Thank you Oh Sean, Oh God we missed you so much, I knew it Oh Sean, Oh God I love you honey, Oh I missed you. Oh my three favorite girls I missed you quite a bit.. Daddy oh daddy we missed you so much! Dada my dada. Yes baby girl your dada is back and not going anywhere Kisses for everyone. Oh honey we missed you so much. I tried to tell them all but they wouldn't, it wasn't fair Well daddy is home now so don't worry anymore. Oh Sean, I never thought. Shhhhh don't speak just kiss. No dada my kiss, my kiss! Oh come give your dada kisses. Come on Lacy you too come show daddy how much he was missed. Oh God here I go again, hold on be right back. What's wrong honey? Daddy she has been sick a lot Does that mean mommy has to go away too like you did? No baby girl, mommy is okay don't worry she will not. Oh honey please come in here and help me I don't know what's wrong with me, I can't stop. Seina, just relax honey I am home now, it's okay. Oh Sean, you are home, it really is you here I was so scared Sean, All I could do was cry a lot. It's okay Seina we have each other again now I am not going anywhere I'm right here with you Calm down and lets go lay down on the bed Come here girls, come lay down with daddy too.. Oh I can't believe it I got my girls here with me You don't know how good it feels to be back here. Oh Sean I think we do know how you feel honey I wanted to go back, have them search everywhere. I was just not ready to give up on you Sean I knew you were coming back, I kept telling them They wouldn't listen to me, it made me so mad I kept telling them I heard you calling, they said it wasn't him.. I knew better, God was with you and somehow I knew I prayed so much for God to bring you back to me He answered my prayers Sean, I, we are so lucky God was with us both all the time I knew he would be.. Even the baby was saying prayers for you to come Lacy too, she kept asking God to make her daddy be alright Sean, Oh I can't hardly breath, I feel so overwhelmed. Easy girl, I'm here now we will be okay, we are all together tonight. Oh Sean I am going to get sick again, oh God what's wrong. Well Seina looks to me like you have gained a bit Been eating a lot while I was gone, or are we...well, you know? Oh Sean don't you even think that way, that can't be it. I don't know honey, we did make love that night remember? Oh Sean, I can't be, it's got to be something else wrong Oh Sean put me down before I get sick, Oh my another girl. Hey girls guess what, there will be another girl before long. Oh No, Leann. that means mommy has been baking again? What are you saying Lacy, where did you hear that? From daddy, that is what he said when Leann was in there, Daddy said mommy has been baking again, she's not fat. Oh Sean, You silly man I love you so much honey We have two surprises for our parents tomorrow morn One is you Sean the other is the baby we are going to have. Well Seina, you are going to take it easy til this baby is born. Oh Sean, God has given me not one but two gifts tonight I am so blessed to have my husband back with us. I Seina am the one that has been blessed with my family I am so grateful for God given me a second chance. Seina, Honey can you ever forgive me for what I did? Oh Sean all has already been forgotten, I love you God knows how much I love you and need you honey He has helped me get past all that made me blue. Sean, we are so lucky to be able to have each other So many families are breaking up around us all the time We have so much to be thankful for in our lives you know God has blessed us with so much he could take away at any time. Well tonight let's all sleep in our bed and snuggle together Tomorrow night the kids can stay with our parents overnight We can have time to ourselves to make up for lost time I have something special for you Sean, but not tonight. I love you Sean with all my heart, I never want to be apart You and the kids are most important in my life When I thought I lost you I wanted to die. Goodnight Sean, I love you, good night girls, I love you. Goodnight Seina, I love you, Goodnight my precious girls. Night mommy and daddy we love you too. Dada night night. Good night my baby girl with all those beautiful curls. Dada, you silly, mommy say you silly man, hahaha wuv you dada, you stay home now dada, no go away again? Yes baby girl, daddy is going to stay home now I promise to never go away from you ever again. Sean? Yes Seina? The way we were? Yes my love. The way we were. Ohhhhhhh Goodnight Sean. Goodnight my beautiful pregnant wife. |
Dear Lord…Oh, there you are, I was just getting ready To thank you for bringing us so far. I have never felt so free, Since you restored our family. I know now how powerful your love, We couldn’t have done it, Without help from above. Did you see my baby girls, Seeing me had them all awhirl. Well I just wanted to thank you here. Have you traveled far? Got time for a beer? Didn’t think so, How about some water, Wine, maybe a soda? Was this my final test? No? Well I promise to try my best. Thanks again for all you have done, I guess at least this race is won. I think we may have a book deal or two, Maybe a movie. Anyone in mind to play you? Well, I should get back inside, To my darling children and loving bride. Stop in anytime my friend, My door will always be opened for you, Right up to the end. I coming Hon, I will be right in, I was just talking, To my heavenly friend. Good bye God, do take care, Bring your peace and love, everywhere. I know it may seem a daunting task, But do your best is all I ask. Yes, I will do my part too, Hon, go put your thigh-highs on, I am coming in to you. |
In The Softness Of Our Love |
Six Months Later |
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Take me in your arms hold me tight Let not a feather come between our skin Close as we melt into one loving heart Soft feathery kisses our love making begins. With fingers warm and gentle soft touch You trace the outline of my wet lips Your tongue dances across my cheek Outlining my neck with your finger tips. Gliding fingers across my breast slowly Teasing me driving the fire to the surface Higher you make me as you bite gently To bring me to the edge is your purpose. As you take totally control of me now My body succumbs to your every play Fingers and lips teasing my entire body Making love in every erotic sensual way. Moans escape my lips softly at first Till you tease me to the point of no return Calling out your name making me purr You feel my body on fire as ecstasy burns. When I think you have me all played out You begin another scene of love making Pleasure becomes so intense with you You have my whole body spasm, shaking. You take me over the edge of no return Causing showers of loves waterfalls to spray As you ride the waves of my ocean of love Inside of me the warmth is where you stay. Exhausted as we lie in each others arms Sweet perfumed smell of love fills the air Our bodies melt into one heart of love With a soft feathery kiss before sleep takes us there. |
It has been six months Since our ordeal, We collaborated on a book, it is doing well. And Lifetime wants screen rights To run a special. We have been on Oprah, And Phil Donahue, And we are doing things We have always wanted to do. We took that trip to Hawaii, And did it with flair, Took the kids and parents, So we could renew our vows there. I love the time I am now free, to spend quality time with my family. Well, just wanted y'all to know We are doing well, constantly on the go. Linda Lieaday, if you are in the sound of my voice, If you still want to do that interview, I will send around the Rolls Royce. Oh, what's that Lord??? Don't gloat. Oh no, Lord, I remember the boat. Linda, I am sorry, I really don't have a Rolls... Har! Har! Har!  It is a Jaguar. Bye y'all. |
