Never Again Will I Trust In Love

by Judy Costea



A perfect man you are not
Then I never expected you to be
All I ever wanted from you
Was your honest love for me.

by Ferrell L. "Huck" Hickson



You are so right,
But I can change you will see,
I do love you so very much,
But something just gets hold of me.

You promised to never hurt me
Not intentionally is what you said
Lead me to believe your love was true
All this time you played with my head.

It is true, I never wanted to hurt you,
And that is what I said,
It is a sickness, that women,
Can easily turn my head.

I can't even hate you for hurting me
Lie after lie your words pierce my heart
I still can't believe I fell for your lies
Did you even love me from the start.

You should hate me
For what I put you through,
Those were not lies,
I have always loved only you

Put all my trust in you ~ telling you everything
Let you into my personal life and such
Not only did you hurt me in this way
Also the ones I hold dear ~ you touched.

I am so sorry I have hurt you so,
And those you love so very dear,
If I could go back and change it,
You know I would…hear.

How can anyone stoop so low like this
What reason did you have for all the lies
I would have done anything for you
You really pulled the wool over my eyes.

I know, I feel lower than dirt.
I was compelled to tell all the lies,
Cause I didn’t want to see,
You saw my weakness in your eyes.

All the beautiful words meant nothing to you
I poured my heart out thinking you cared
What did I do to deserved to be hurt like this
There wasn't anything with you I didn't share.

Those words meant everything to me,
Your words touched my soul,
You don’t deserve what I have put you through,
I have been a real butt hole.

You used my heart for your selfish pleasures
How did it make you feel to steal my heart
To make a women feel so wanted ~ so complete
To allow her to bare her soul from the start.

I admit, it started out that way,
Winning your heart was a real feat,
To have you give me total sway,
Was a feeling that can’t be beat.

I was upfront with you all the time we spoke
How much pain and heartache I had been through
You violated my trust to the core of my soul
Yet I still can't bring myself to hate you.

I have been a total cad,
Adding to your sorrow was not my intent,
Violating your trust was really bad,
But the taking all you had I couldn’t relent.

Each day felt exciting as I thought of you
I once had something to look forward to
Til you ripped the rug from under my heart
I've never hurt so much ~ Why do I cry over you..

I am not worthy of your tears,
I have tried hard to change from the person you see,
I have tried to change but can’t I fear,
When lust rules and takes hold of me.

I don't think it bothers you ~ what you did
I'm sorry's could never erase all this pain
I once thought I had a love so beautiful
Boy, was I the loser in your lovers game.

You are so wrong,
I would change if I could
I have been doing it so long,
I am the real loser and you are all that is good.

You have lost all the respect I held for you
You will never know the pain I have inside
I will never understand why you did this to me
Never again will I trust in love ~ for this heart I will hide.

I know, I deserve that and more.
I see the pain in your eyes,
It strikes me right to the core,
You deserve a love that is true,
That doesn’t cheat or tell lies.
Oh God I wish this pain would die
He's not worth the tears I cry
Yet I can't make this pain go away
What kind of fool was I?

If I had the power to take away your pain,
You know I would in the blink of an eye.
For I am the one to blame,
I DO love you and that is why.

By snowmansmom (All rights reserved)
© 2006 snowmansmom (All rights reserved)
Pictures Taken From Google Search
By Ferrell L. “Huck” Hickson (All rights reserved)
© 2007 Ferrell L. “Huck” Hickson (All rights reserved)




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