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* In Your Dreams *
(please don't fret--none of these are essential to understanding this story)
Nighttime in the desert is like a lucky break, a welcome respite from
less desirable conditions. Unlike most breaks, though, you can count on
nighttime coming, as sure as the sun sets each day--or two suns set, as
is the case on Tatooine.
Princess Leia Organa wasn't getting used to the heat there. In fact, she
was thinner than ever for it, though her perpetual state of concern for
the carbonite-encased Han Solo didn't help. But still she spent another
day with moisture-farmboy-turned-Jedi Luke Skywalker in Mos Eisley
laying groundwork for the plan they'd hatched with ex-Cloud City Baron
Administrator Lando Calrissian and Solo's wookiee first-mate Chewbacca
to free Han from his present employment with Jabba the Hutt as palace wall decoration.
Only hours after Leia and Luke retreated for the day back to Obi-Wan
Kenobi's old home in the mountains of the Jundland Wastes did she feel a
sense of relief. Now, as she got ready for bed in the pantry that had
been turned into her room, she let the cool air that radiated from the
earthen walls permeate her skin under her flowing white sleepgown. A
candle flickered next to her bed, a mental safeguard against chill.
Luxuriating in this simple comfort, Leia sat on her bed and began to
unbraid the one long tail of hair she'd worn looped at the nape of her
neck. The thick, crimson blanket that hung as the door muffled Luke's
voice.
"Leia, can I come in?"
She looked down at her gown. The sleeves were long and fitted with a
band at the wrist, and she was almost always stepping on the length of
it, as was often the case for the diminutive Princess with any 'It's dark,' Leia reasoned with herself. 'Besides, he's seen me a lot
worse,' she added, remembering how she ended up in a mud bodysuit during
a friendly wrestling match with Luke on Mimban a couple years ago.
"Sure, Luke," she said, continuing to unthread her braid.
Luke draped the blanket aside and stepped in. He stood in a black tank
top and khaki Alliance-issue pants, the light of the candle wicking off
the muscles of his arms and shoulders. His soft blue eyes fairly glowed
in the dimness of the room.
Leia had noticed how muscular he'd become since his time on Dagobah,
since he began his formal Jedi training. And she'd always noticed those
blue eyes. Even with her more recent feelings for Han, she couldn't shake
the attraction she'd always had to Luke. And she couldn't shake her
wonder at why she'd barely been given the chance to act upon her feelings
for Han. Maybe there was a reason why Han had been taken away and Luke
given back to her.
Leia was exhausted, and confused. "Have a seat," she said with a
fleeting smile, patting the thin, firm mattress she was sitting on. Luke
stepped over to join her.
"I've just been thinking," Luke began. "I know Tatooine's a lot different
from Alderaan...it's the complete opposite of Hoth...and I know what our
plan means to you, and what it's taken out of you...."
Leia dropped her almost unbraided tail and sat in awe. "Did you know I
was just thinking about those things?" she asked with wide eyes. "No,
wait a minute," she thought better, "I know you knew. The question is
how did you know? Why is it we always seem to know what the other's
thinking?"
Luke took Leia's hand. "Princess, I'm not sure." They looked down at
their clasped hands. Leia wondered if this was the time. "Luke, I...."
Luke jumped in. "I just want to say how proud I am of you. You're so
strong. I wish I could be more like you."
"Luke, you are strong," Leia said as she searched his eyes, "in a way I
can never be. It's me who could learn more than a few things from you."
Luke smiled. "We're here to help each other, I think," he said.
"And Han," they added together. A long silence followed.
"Well," Luke said with a laugh as he got up from the bed, "now that
that's cleared up, I'll let you get to sleep."
Leia tucked her legs up, slid under the muted print blanket and white
sheet beneath, and laid her head down on the bed's slim pillow.
Luke looked down at her and felt well up in him for what seemed like the
millionth time how much he loved her. But right now what was more
important was getting Han back. Then the feelings they each had for the
other would work themselves out. But sometimes--like right now--it was
so hard to leave it at that.
Luke leaned over, cupped the flame of the candle next to the bed, and
blew it out. As smoke from the wick wound up into the darkness, he gently
took the top of the bedcovers and tucked them in around Leia. He meant to
stand back up but instead found himself kneeling with one knee on the
floor next to her.
Leia's heart strained at his tender gesture, and her eyes shimmered with
tears. "Luke..." she said, choking on the emotions welling up within her.
"Leia..." he said as he laid on a hand on her cheek. She pulled an arm
from under the covers and wrapped her hand over his. Luke leaned close
to her face and felt a tear trickle under his hand.
It was too much. "Oh, Leia, don't cry," he whispered, wiping the tear
away. He couldn't bear the pain she was in, and moved his lips over hers
to ease it.
Leia was about to lose it. For the first time since Han was taken away,
she was going to cry. She couldn't. She mustn't. She'd kept it together
to give her strength, the strength she needed to help get him back. If
she lost it now....
Luke finished her thought, and moved his lips to kiss her cheek instead.
"Stay strong," he whispered in her ear. "It'll all be fine--you'll see.
Remember--I love you."
Leia lay silent for a moment as her emotions subsided. "I love you, too,"
she said, releasing his hand with a sniffle.
Luke got to his feet and stepped softly to the makeshift door. From the
other side of the blanket he peeked back in, the dim light of the living
area glowing behind him.
"Good dreams, Princess."
"Good dreams," she repeated with another fleeting smile.
Leia did not sleep well these nights. In fact, she hadn't slept well for
years now. The nightmares started after the destruction of Alderaan, of
course. Then just as that trauma left her consciousness, Han entered it,
and for several weeks between Hoth and Bespin she spent her nights
instead shivering with adrenaline at the strange but wonderful feelings
he'd stirred up within her. Just as quickly he was gone, taken by the
bounty hunter Boba Fett for Jabba, and there was nothing she or anyone
else could do. The nightmares returned, this time filled with images of
Han standing bound before the carbon-freezing pit at Cloud City...
Chewbacca roaring in helpless outrage...the evil orange glow of the
chamber...Han's face just before the gas of the pit engulfed it.
The images would greet her at the perimeter of unconsciousness and
accompany her to fitful hours of deep sleep in which she imagined
herself frozen in carbonite, dark hours punctuated by her waking up in a
cold sweat gasping for air.
Then in the waking hours, those few hours before Leia was to rise for
the day, came the litany of her worst times with Han. Sleep had been
where she was learning to let her unconscious solve the problems she'd
encountered during the day: she'd toss and turn as her mind grappled
phantom problems--problems that she'd never actually encountered, yet
somehow left the answers to actual problems behind. Without Han around
she couldn't solve her very real problems with him, and so her
unconscious kept rolling them over, torturing her with the hurtful things
they'd said to each other in the three years since they'd met.
"Look, Your Worshipfulness, let's get one thing straight. I take orders
from just one person...me!"..."It's a wonder you're still alive."
"I ain't in this for your revolution, and I'm not in it for you, Princess.
I expect to be well paid. I'm in it for the money,"..."You needn't worry
about your reward. If money is all that you love, then that's what you'll
receive."
"I'd just as soon kiss a wookiee,"..."I can arrange that! Believe me,
you could use a good kiss. You've been so busy giving orders you've
forgotten how to be a woman. If you'd let go for a moment, I could have
helped you. But it's too late now, sweetheart. Your big opportunity is
flying out of here,"..."You've got all the breeding of a Bantha, but not
as much class. Enjoy your trip, hot shot!"
"Don't get excited,"..."Captain, being held by you isn't quite enough to
get me excited,"..."Sorry, sweetheart. We haven't got time for anything
else."
"I don't like this,"..."Well, what would you like?"
"Besides, we'll soon be gone,"..."And then you're as good as gone, aren't
you?"
With hair plastered to her head in sweat, Leia bolted upright in bed.
The dreams weren't good. She kicked out the tangles she'd put the sheet
in, then--with a fierce sigh--fell back onto her pillow. She rubbed the
back of her hand back and forth across her forehead. "Let's try this
again," she said as she rolled to her side. "Good dreams," she told
herself as she drifted back to sleep. "Good dreams."
"Come here often?" a voice intoned behind her ear.
Leia's heart nearly beat out of her chest at the sound of Han Solo's
familiar baritone so close, let alone the feel of it on her neck, but she
played it cool. She was incognito, after all, waiting for Sodus Bay--
Alliance contact in the Half Moon sector--here at The Yellow Card in the
capital city of Colosse, and she couldn't let on that she knew this
Corellian ne'er-do-well.
"What the hell are you doing here?" she muttered behind an inviting
smile, appearing to the foozball fans that packed the bar as if she were
accepting Solo's pass as he joined her in the cramped, shadowy booth she
occupied.
"Thanks, gorgeous, don't mind if I do," Solo said loudly as he folded his
lanky frame--clad in the usual white broadcloth shirt, black Bloodstriped
pants, and dark blue flight jacket--onto the bench across from her. "Your
disguise almost worked," he lowered his voice and continued. "You look so
much like a woman I barely recognized you."
Leia's cheeks grew hot, but if they were getting red you couldn't tell.
She was heavily make-upped, with her ample hair down and free and wild
about her face and shoulders. A deep green dress clung to her, its
plunging neckline filled with gold chains to match her gold bangle
bracelets and hoop earrings. The meeting with Sodus was to appear a tryst,
and a lack of genuine trysts in her life inspired her to play this part
to the hilt. She really did look stunning, certainly nothing like Han,
Luke, or any other Rebel had ever seen her. In the old days, on Alderaan,
though...well, anyone who knew her then was gone, murdered en masse a
year ago by the Empire. She drained the last of her drink and set the
glass down with a thud on the black metal table. Her glance fell to the
silver ashtray to her left, and she noticed the reflection of a ceiling
fan spinning in it.
"Captain," she said as she drew a deep breath, "you're supposed to be
far, far away, helping Luke deliver supplies to Oran. Why are you here?"
"Please, Your Worship," Han whispered and mock-scolded her with a finger,
"some discretion." A waiter droid came to a hovering stop before their
table.
"Your order?" the floating silver orb monotoned.
"A Corellian ale for me, and..." Han said, turning his head from the
droid to the Princess with a grin, "what's the lady's pleasure?"
"A Colosse Crusher," Leia said nonchalantly.
"Very good," the droid replied and hovered to the next booth.
Han leaned back with a smile, stretched an arm along the back of the
bench, and thrummed his fingertips on the top. "A Colosse Crusher?" he
repeated with raised eyebrows. "This is going to be a long evening,
isn't it?"
"Not for us, flyboy," Leia said through her teeth as she leaned forward
into the circle of white light cast by the brushed red metal lamp
dangling above the table. "You're going away now. I have business to
attend to, and you're not part of it."
"Depends on what kinda business you're talking about, don't it?" Han
leered and leaned forward to meet her.
"In your dreams, Solo," Leia shot back with a dazzling smile. "You know,
I don't appreciate your checking up on me like this, either. I'm a big
girl, you know. Are Chewie and Luke here, too?"
"Big? I beg to differ, Your Shortness," Han said with a smile. "And nope,
they aren't with me here. Oh, and I definitely don't mind checking you
out like this," he added, giving her a liberal once-over.
Leia sat back, fought the reflex to cross her arms by gripping the bench
beneath her instead, and sighed. It was useless trying to have a
legitimate conversation with him right now. "You're really full of
yourself tonight, aren't you?" she said with an involuntary smile.
"Yup," Han said as he reached for the drinks the server droid had rolled
up with. Leia glanced at the short droid, and an image of Artoo Detoo
serving drinks in a dark room flashed through her mind. For a second she
stared at the space just above the droid's head.
Han caught her look. 'She's spending too much time with Luke, staring
into nothing like he does,' he thought.
"Sweetheart," Han said, nudging her hand on the table with her glass.
"Your drink?"
The feel of something cold and wet on her fingers snapped her out of it.
"Thanks," Leia said, reaching for the glass and pretending she hadn't been
in another world just then.
Han rolled his eyes and put the incident in his "Things I Can't Figure
Out About Her Worship" file, then pretended along with her. "To the
Cause," he said, tilting his drink in a toast toward Leia. "May it bring
many more occasions for getups like the one you're in tonight. With this
one, sister, you've charmed me completely."
"As if that takes much," she said and took a long drag of her drink.
"You live to be impressed, Solo--especially by women."
"Now you're getting personal," Han said with a sheepish look. "That
almost hurt."
Leia leaned forward again and spoke under her breath. "Look, as much fun
as this may or may not have been, I'm going to hurt you if you don't
leave--now. My 'boyfriend' is going to be here very shortly, and we don't
need you around to possibly tip off any tail that might be following him."
"OK, OK," Han said, corralling his drink and sliding out of the booth.
Shifting his pockets, he pulled out enough bills to cover their drinks,
folded them carefully together, then walked toward Leia. He leaned close
to her, breathed in her perfume, then very deliberately tucked the bundle
into the neckline of her dress. "Just remember, sweetheart," he said,
slowly moving his swirling hazel gaze from her neckline to her eyes then
cupping her chin, "I'll be around later for any unfinished business you
need to conduct."
Trapped in his stare, Leia realized she was holding her breath. He was so
nearly palpable, she was dizzy. Or was it the Colosse Crushers? Either
way, she had to keep it together.
"Please," she said disdainfully and rolled her eyes.
"I love it when you do that," Han said with a sincerity that surprised
even himself.
"Go away!" Leia exclaimed as she laid her hands flat on his jacket and
pushed, laughing in spite of herself. As he parted with a lopsided smile,
she watched him disappear into the crowd and took an even longer drag of
her drink.
"May I sit down?" asked a wavy red-haired, green-eyed, "I think so," Leia said with a cautious smile. Either this was Sodus Bay,
or she'd been waiting so long alone now that someone was actually trying
to pick her up. Could be interesting in any case, she figured.
The man swept his short, tan cape aside and took the bench across from
her. "Thank you," he said, "You see, when I saw you from across the room,
I knew this was made for you." He slid his hand inside his cape and
pulled out a thick gold rope-chain. Diamond-cut, it sparkled in the dim
light of the booth.
Leia smiled. The chain was really quite beautiful, as well as the
designated overture for her meeting. She played her part to recognize him.
"You shouldn't have, honey," she said as her smile turned into a grin and
she cupped her palms together in the air. He dropped the chain into her
hands.
"Sodus Bay?" she asked quietly as she draped the chain around her neck.
He stood up, then she stood and turned her back to him. "At your service,
Your Highness," he murmured as he fastened the necklace, and they sat
back down.
He'd played his part perfectly. It was indeed Sodus Bay, an extremely
competent, reliable, and respected--if not young-- member of the
Alliance Half Moon sector. Otherwise he was known for an impossible
mixture of painfully good manners and brutal sense of humor. His slogan
in social circles was known to be "Extra mean equals extra funny."
He was all politeness now, though. This was, after all, his first meeting
with royalty. Sodus hadn't seen the Princess since her days in the Senate
(and even then it had just been over the HoloNet), and the fact that
she'd grown into an extremely attractive young woman did not escape his
well-known keen powers of observation.
"I apologize for being late," Sodus began, "I failed to compensate for
the traffic from the game in town."
"Apology accepted, Mr. Bay," Leia replied, toying with the necklace he'd
just given her. "I think this lovely chain more than compensates for
anything. Now, if you don't mind," she continued as she leaned forward,
"let's get down to business."
"Of course," Sodus said, leaning forward to join her in the light, which
revealed just how young--and freckled--his face was. 'Could he be younger
than I am?' Leia silently wondered as he began his report.
It ended up being a long night after all. Sodus' news was complicated;
Half Moon was a treacherous sector for the Alliance to operate in.
Meanwhile, the foozball game the bar patrons were watching was turning
out to be a particularly contentious one full of bad calls and lucky
scores. Fans on both sides were getting restless, and Leia sensed
aggression in the room that ran higher than the usual sporting event
engendered. Plus, she hated to admit it, but the Colosse Crushers she'd
been drinking ostensibly as part of her cover had knocked her for a loop.
Truth was she was afraid to stand up for fear of falling down.
"I've kept you too long," Sodus said as he rose from his bench. "Shall
we?"
"Let's," said Leia, taking his hand as he laid his other hand on the
small of her back and guided her toward the exit.
Before they could get to the door, though, voices started shouting,
bodies started jostling, and blaster bolts started flying. The crowd was
stampeding. Sodus was knocked down, and Leia was swept out of the bar
amidst a sea of panicking patrons into the street.
The cold, fresh air rushed into Leia's lungs. She gasped at the
sensation. Then someone ran into her from behind, snapping her neck back.
Her head started to spin and she spread her arms out, fighting to keep
her balance.
Walking out of The Brewcaster a few blocks away, Han heard raised voices.
He looked down the street and saw a mob pouring out of a building. "What
the hell?" he wondered, walking then running toward The Yellow Card when
he realized that's where they were coming from.
'She's probably long gone,' Han thought to himself as he weaved through
onlookers, 'especially with my threatening to return,' he added wryly.
'Better make sure, though...she should be easy to spot anyway--just look
for someone short with lots of hair.'
From the perimeter Han scanned the widening spill of people outside the
bar. Soon he was engulfed and found himself working against the tide when
he spotted a petite woman in a green dress getting bounced around like a
pinball.
"Sweetheart," Han shouted, not wanting to use her actual name with so
many ears around. "Sweetheart!"
Leia closed her eyes and tried to anticipate the bodies coming near her
by the air they displaced and the heat they radiated. She'd honed the
skill, though she'd never told anyone about it, during childhood games of
hide-and-seek and blind-bully. Besides, Force knew all her other senses
were dulled at the moment. "Slow down! Take it easy!" she shouted to no
one in particular.
What could Han say to catch her attention, to get her to work her way
toward him, without causing too much suspicion? As usual, inspiration
struck him in a flash. "Luke!" he shouted. "Luke!"
"Luke?" Leia repeated to herself. "Is he here after all?" She spun
around, opened her eyes, and saw Han.
Eye contact established, Han started handing bodies down to get to Leia.
Conveniently, someone flew into her side and sent her directly toward him.
"Whatever it took to get you into my arms tonight," Han said into the top
of Leia's head. He left her against his chest with an arm wrapped around
her, and with his other arm fought to the edge of the teeming crowd. In
another minute they were free and walking toward a hotel at the end of
the block. Han turned to the sound of litter clattering in a whirlwind
in a cul-de-sac to their left. Adrenaline still pumping, he was nearly
crushing her on his chest.
"Han...uh, thanks, but I need to breathe," Leia said, pushing away from
him, "and I can walk on my own now."
"You sure?" he asked with a furrowed brow as he stopped and released her.
Leia nodded once and stood steady for a moment...then her head fell back
and her knees started to buckle.
"Right," Han said wryly, catching and pulling her back up, then tucking
her back against his chest. "Stubborn," he added as they walked on.
"Bullheaded," she said into his jacket. "Where are we going?"
"We're going to a hotel," he explained, "not where you're checked in, and
nowhere near the spaceport or the Falcon and Chewie, just in case anyone
there can put two and two--and us--together."
"Mmm. So Chewie IS here. Seems you've put you and me together all by
yourself," Leia slurred.
"That's right," Han said with a laugh. "We've got unfinished business,
remember?"
"Right," Leia said with a snort, then stopped and turned around woozily.
"Mr. Bay!" she exclaimed, suddenly remembering.
"Who?" Han asked, grabbing her shoulders to keep her on her feet.
"Sodus Bay, my contact," she explained with wide eyes. "We were separated
in the bar."
"So?" Han said simply.
"Han, it was a stampede! He could have been hurt," she said impatiently,
looking over his shoulder into the distance.
"Sweetheart, you made it just fine," Han counseled. "I'm sure he did, too.
He's a big boy. Besides, there's nothing we can do for him that wouldn't
do more harm than good at this point," he said, his hazel eyes soft and
searching her face. "We've got to get out of public right now, OK?"
Leia still hesitated. He's so young, she thought. But he had been
appointed contact, she reminded herself. "OK," she said, nodding hazily.
Han tucked her once more against his chest, and they quickened their pace.
The warmth and stillness of the hotel hall was a blessed relief to Leia.
At last the spinning world was beginning to slow down.
"Wait out here," Han said, leaning her up against the wall next to their
door. "Just gonna check inside for stormtroopers," he finished with a
wink. She slid her head up and down along the wall in acknowledgement.
In another moment he came back out. "All clear," he announced. "Can you
make it on your own now?" he asked, gently pulling her hand with her away
from the wall.
"Yes," she said. She'd been semi-allright as long as she was in the dark
and moving. But she'd been standing still and staring at the bright hall
lights. Her subconscious told her body she was safe with Han, and she
shut down at last, collapsing before his eyes. With pilot's reflexes Han
knelt to catch her before she hit the floor. "OK, Princess," he murmured,
looking down with a grimace into her face. He'd never seen her so
peaceful. "I think you can use the rest anyway."
With the city lights sparkling beyond the privacy-tinted window of the
hotel room, Han stood next to the bed with a glass of water and looked
down at the Princess. Truly she'd never looked more like the woman he
knew she was under the Alderaanian royalty and Alliance masks she wore
to keep herself from falling apart. Her hair flowed wild and free on the
pillow and under her shoulders, just as he always imagined it would.
The gold of her jewelry glinted in the lights from the window, and her
chest rose and fell in slow, steady breaths. He noticed a thick rope-chain
among her necklaces that he hadn't seen earlier. 'Where'd that come
from?' he thought. Tossing the question aside, he leaned down to leave
the glass on the nightstand next to the bed, and found himself hovering
over her.
"Princess-Senator Leia Organa," he said to himself, "you're beautiful."
He'd finally admitted it. Sure, he'd been flirting with her for the last
year; that's what all Corellians did with practically every woman they
met. But he'd refused to entertain the notion that there might be
something behind the rapport he and the Princess had. Could it be he
actually found her attractive...desirable? Yes. Now that he'd thought
about it, the idea wasn't so bad. In fact, it sounded pretty good.
Smiling to himself, he walked around to the other side of the bed,
stripped off his jacket, unfastened his blaster rig and hung it on the
bedpost, and sat down to work his boots off.
"Well, Your Worship," Han thought out loud, "this bed is big enough that
we don't have to touch each other. Not that I'm against touching. But I
know you are. And Luke wouldn't be thrilled about it either with that
crush he's had on you since before you guys even met." With a sigh he
laid down, crossed his ankles, and laced his hands behind his head.
"Here's another one you owe me, kid...so much for sleep."
"Sleep, Han," Leia murmured.
Han turned his head to see the Princess' profile. "You awake?" he asked.
"No, I'm just talking in my sleep," she said dryly. Han smiled at the
ceiling. She still had a sense of humor, even with a hangover on the way.
"Thanks, Han, for checking up on me. And for not going away. You've
charmed me completely."
They rolled over to face each other. The city lights shone in each
other's eyes, and a long peace stretched between them. Then she reached
out to him. Wordlessly, he slid close to her, tucked an arm around her,
and rolled her onto her back. As he moved his lips over hers he
realized...she was out.
Han kept his lips close to hers. "Unfinished business?" he said. "Yeah,
I think we've got some, sweetheart." He kissed her forehead, then laid
his head down above hers with his arm left tucked around her.
When Leia awoke she could sense Han next to her. He wasn't They were going to get Han.
Leia padded silently out of her room to join them in the living area.
Luke was crouching down and facing Artoo with his back to her.
"Good dreams?" Luke asked.
"In the end, yes," she said, laughing at herself for still being surprised
that Luke knew where she was without seeing or hearing her. Artoo rolled
backward, and Leia walked up behind Luke. She laid a hand on his
shoulder as they watched the droid play the hologram one last time.
They were going to get Han.
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